TED演讲：解读羞耻(2)

 　　And she goes, "Uh... no." 然后她说：“呃，不记得。”

　　Of course, the only thing I could say at that point was, "Yeah, me neither. Yeah -- me neither." 所以当然了，我也只能说：“哦，我也是...我也是。”

　　And I'm thinking to myself, "Brené, what are you doing? Why did you bring this up?  然后我对自己说：“布琳，你在干什么？你在干吗呢？你怎么会提这个？

　　Have you lost your mind? Your sisters would be perfect for this." 你昏了头了吗？ 你的姐妹这方面是很完美的。”

　　So I looked back up and she said, "Are you really going to try to break in and steal the video before they put it on YouTube?" 我回过神来，于是她说： “你不会是真的想撬门进去，在他们上传到YouTube之前，把视频偷出来吧？”

　　And I said, "I'm just thinking about it a little bit." 我说：“我就是想了一小下。”

　　She said, "You're like the worst vulnerability¹ role model ever." 她说：“你就是史上最糟糕的脆弱者榜样。”

　　Then I looked at her and I said something that at the time felt a little dramatic², but ended up being more prophetic than dramatic.  然后我看着她说了一些，当时看有点戏剧性，现在看更像是预言的话。

　　I said, "If 500 turns into 1,000 or 2,000, my life is over." 我说：“如果500变成1000或者2000，我就死定了。”

　　I had no contingency³ plan for four million. 我压根就没想过四百万点击率是什么情况。

　　And my life did end when that happened.  于是我的生活真的完了。

　　And maybe the hardest part about my life ending is that I learned⁴ something hard about myself,  而或许其中最困难的，就是我发现了自身纠结的那一部分，

　　and that was that, as much as I would be frustrated⁵ about not being able to get my work out to the world,  那就是：一方面我会因为无法把我的工作成果展现给公众而失落，

　　there was a part of me that was working very hard to engineer staying small, staying right under the radar⁶.  而另一方面我又非常努力想做到不引人注目，隐藏在公众的视线之下。

　　But I want to talk about what I've learned. There's two things that I've learned in the last year. 但是我想讲一下我所学到的。在过去的一年我学到两件事。

1 vulnerability   

n.脆弱(性)

参考例句：

• A baby is the embodiment of vulnerability. 婴儿极为脆弱。
• Saudi Arabia obscures its vulnerability by opaqueness. 沙特阿拉伯人以其神秘莫测来掩饰其脆弱。

2 dramatic   

adj.引人注目的；戏剧的；演戏的

参考例句：

• She plays a very dramatic woman with flashing eyes.她饰演一位双眼闪光的引人注目的妇人。
• His speech was dramatic.他的演说激动人心。

3 contingency   

n.意外事件，可能性

参考例句：

• We should be prepared for any contingency.我们应该对任何应急情况有所准备。
• A fire in our warehouse was a contingency that we had not expected.库房的一场大火是我们始料未及的。

4 learned   

adj.有学问的，博学的；learn的过去式和过去分词

参考例句：

• He went into a rage when he learned about it.他听到这事后勃然大怒。
• In this little village,he passed for a learned man.在这个小村子里，他被视为有学问的人。

5 frustrated   

adj.挫败的，失意的，泄气的v.使不成功( frustrate的过去式和过去分词 )；挫败；使受挫折；令人沮丧

参考例句：

• It's very easy to get frustrated in this job. 这个工作很容易令人懊恼。
• The bad weather frustrated all our hopes of going out. 恶劣的天气破坏了我们出行的愿望。 来自《简明英汉词典》

6 radar   

n.雷达，无线电探测器

参考例句：

• They are following the flight of an aircraft by radar.他们正在用雷达追踪一架飞机的飞行。
• Enemy ships were detected on the radar.敌舰的影像已显现在雷达上。