海军协定（17）

“Then for the first time the horror of my situation came in its full force. Hitherto I had been acting¹, and action had numbed² thought. I had been so confident of regaining³ the treaty at once that I had not dared to think of what would be the consequence if I failed to do so. But now there was nothing more to be done, and I had leisure to realize my position. It was horrible. Watson there would tell you that I was a nervous, sensitive boy at school. It is my nature. I thought of my uncle and of his colleagues in the Cabinet, of the shame which I had brought upon him, upon myself, upon every one connected with me. What though I was the victim of an extraordinary accident? No allowance is made for accidents where diplomatic interests are at stake. I was ruined, shamefully⁴, hopelessly ruined. I don't know what I did. I fancy I must have made a scene. I have a dim recollection of a group of officials who crowded round me, endeavoring to soothe⁵ me. One of them drove down with me to Waterloo, and saw me into the Woking train. I believe that he would have come all the way had it not been that Dr. Ferrier, who lives near me, was going down by that very train. The doctor most kindly⁶ took charge of me, and it was well he did so, for I had a fit in the station, and before we reached home I was practically a raving⁷ maniac⁸.

“这时，我才开始意识到我的处境可怕到了极点，迄今为止，我只顾行动，根本没顾上思考。我一直深信可以很快找到那份协定，因此我根本不敢想如果找不到，后果如何。可是现在既已一筹莫展，我就有空来考虑自己的处境了。这实在太可怕了。华生可能已告诉你，我在学校时，是一个胆怯而敏一感的孩子。我的一性一格就是这样。我想到我舅父和他内阁里的同僚，想到我给他带来的耻辱，给我自己和亲友带来的耻辱，我个人成为这个非常离奇的意外事件的牺牲品，又算得了什么呢？重要的是外一交一利益事关重大，绝不允许出一点意外事故的。我算毁了，毫无希望地可耻地毁了。我不知道我做了些什么。我想我一定是当众大闹了一场。我只模模糊糊地记得当时有一些同事围着我，尽力安慰我。有一个同事陪我一起乘车到滑铁卢，把我送上去沃金的火车。我相信，当时如果不是我的邻居费里尔医生也乘这次火车同行，那么那位同事会一直把我送到家的。这位医生对我照顾得非常周到，也确实多亏他这样照顾我，因为我在车站就已昏厥过一次，在我到家之前几乎成了一个语无伦次的疯子。

1 acting   

n.演戏，行为，假装；adj.代理的，临时的，演出用的

参考例句：

• Ignore her,she's just acting.别理她，她只是假装的。
• During the seventies,her acting career was in eclipse.在七十年代，她的表演生涯黯然失色。

2 numbed   

v.使麻木，使麻痹( numb的过去式和过去分词 )

参考例句：

• His mind has been numbed. 他已麻木不仁。 来自《简明英汉词典》
• He was numbed with grief. 他因悲伤而昏迷了。 来自《现代英汉综合大词典》

3 regaining   

复得( regain的现在分词 )； 赢回； 重回； 复至某地

参考例句：

• She was regaining consciousness now, but the fear was coming with her. 现在她正在恢发她的知觉，但是恐怖也就伴随着来了。
• She said briefly, regaining her will with a click. 她干脆地答道，又马上重新振作起精神来。

4 shamefully   

可耻地； 丢脸地； 不体面地； 羞耻地

参考例句：

• He misused his dog shamefully. 他可耻地虐待自己的狗。
• They have served me shamefully for a long time. 长期以来，他们待我很坏。

5 soothe   

v.安慰；使平静；使减轻；缓和；奉承

参考例句：

• I've managed to soothe him down a bit.我想方设法使他平静了一点。
• This medicine should soothe your sore throat.这种药会减轻你的喉痛。

6 kindly   

adj.和蔼的，温和的，爽快的；adv.温和地，亲切地

参考例句：

• Her neighbours spoke of her as kindly and hospitable.她的邻居都说她和蔼可亲、热情好客。
• A shadow passed over the kindly face of the old woman.一道阴影掠过老太太慈祥的面孔。

7 raving   

adj.说胡话的；疯狂的，怒吼的；非常漂亮的；令人醉心[痴心]的v.胡言乱语(rave的现在分词)n.胡话；疯话adv.胡言乱语地；疯狂地

参考例句：

• The man's a raving lunatic. 那个男子是个语无伦次的疯子。
• When I told her I'd crashed her car, she went stark raving bonkers. 我告诉她我把她的车撞坏了时，她暴跳如雷。

8 maniac   

n.精神癫狂的人；疯子

参考例句：

• Be careful!That man is driving like a maniac!注意！那个人开车像个疯子一样！
• You were acting like a maniac,and you threatened her with a bomb!你像一个疯子，你用炸弹恐吓她！