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Rise Above The Ashes Around You

The greatest high in life is when u fall in love. Love, well u cannot snatch it, lock it or create it. It should come from within you. Being in love is an experience and only if u go through it u will know the intricacies of it. U feel your best when you are in love. Love is a process where your brain has taken a backseat and your heart is working overtime¹.

Love is not just a four-letter word, but it's a totally different feeling, which takes your entire body, soul and mind to altogether a different world. Love can neither be created nor destroyed. It passes from one person to another. The total amount of love in the universe always increases and never remains² constant.

I like any normal human being have had a lot of crushes from my childhood. How often do we use the word crush? All the feelings and thoughts are dumped into it, if we make no further progress with our infatuation. This happens not only for the fear of rejection³, but also because many of us fail to approach. If this ego⁴ had disappeared, probably a quarter of us would have been in a love relationship with our crush.

Till now my most long lasting⁵ crush was on a girl, studying in the same classes as me, when I was in my final year of schooling⁶ i.e. in 10th.It lasted for almost 7 months. During the lectures, we used to look at each other, with our eyes doing all the talking and our lips just sealed like an envelope. Even when she used to go in her car, she used to look back and I would just look for those eyes and not for the vehicles around my bicycle. Every book I read at home never ended without me thinking at least a million times about her. I used to ponder whether it was love? Or was it that she didn't like me and so she stared at me? Rather than bothering about the tutorials in the classes, I used to spend minutes in front of the mirror (mind you it takes only seconds for guys) grooming⁷ myself to clear even the last ruffled⁸ hair on my forehead, before going for the classes. Every song I heard used to remind me of her. Shy as I was, I never made an attempt to speak to her. To be frank I also didn't have the guts⁹. Then I made the biggest mistake of my teenage life. I went for an introduction with my crush through a common friend, who was known for all the wrong reasons. Then those un-seasonal rains of threats distorted the fine painting of love on my mind. I asked myself whether I was wrong? I argued that at no point of time did I trouble her, but just adored her. So my feelings were divine, but they were interpreted wrongly. Well u don't get a feel of a movie by just looking at the reel of magnetic tapes. Don't you?

The second significant crush was when I had gone to a cousins place, a year after this incident. I saw her and I don't know what attracted me to her. I was wearing a spectacle the frame of which covered my whole face like the windshield of a car. My dressing¹⁰ sense was also gross. I was very conscious and was fighting for getting fluent English out of my mouth. This was because I had been to an English medium school where the local language Hindi and Marathi were prevalent. I spoke¹¹ very less when I was in the group and between talks my crush made some personal remarks on me. I couldn't take it. But I kept a smiling face. After that, only I know how many sleepless¹² nights I had spent. In many tones the same words used to haunt me. I then decided¹³ to bring a drastic change on myself. So gone were those spectacles and a new pair donned my noses. I became choosier and imaginative in the way I clothed myself. The English vocabulary also improved, as I became a voracious¹⁴ reader and "a-novel-a-day-maniac". Then after some years of friendship and 3-4 movie dates came the day when she forced me to tell the times she had hurt me. Ya to be exact, it was on Friday 23rd of July 2000 to be exact and 8.39pm to be precise. After a lot of skipped heartbeats and rushed breathing I narrated¹⁵ the incident and she gave her apology. She said she was totally unaware¹⁶ when she spoke about it. I was feeling peaceful after a long time.

Many times we speak more where we don't have to, knowingly or unknowingly and hurt others. It is really tough to go through the emotions, when people have hurt you. Especially for Geminines like me, who have an inner core only for themselves. They won't share it with anyone, no matter what. So even after being low on morale¹⁷, to come out of things successfully with significant improvements is a challenge. This is what my principle" Rise above the ashes around you" is all about. I always pep myself up by saying, "Keep improving for the better".

PS: - At no point of time was I trying to boast about myself. If still there is some element of self-praise, in the above piece, I owe due apology to my readers. In my future articles, know more on what happened next with my second crush and the cyber love I was involved in.

1 overtime   

adj.超时的，加班的；adv.加班地

参考例句：

• They are working overtime to finish the work.为了完成任务他们正在加班加点地工作。
• He was paid for the overtime he worked.他领到了加班费。

2 remains   

n.剩余物，残留物；遗体，遗迹

参考例句：

• He ate the remains of food hungrily.他狼吞虎咽地吃剩余的食物。
• The remains of the meal were fed to the dog.残羹剩饭喂狗了。

3 rejection   

n.拒绝，被拒，抛弃，被弃

参考例句：

• He decided not to approach her for fear of rejection.他因怕遭拒绝决定不再去找她。
• The rejection plunged her into the dark depths of despair.遭到拒绝使她陷入了绝望的深渊。

4 ego   

n.自我，自己，自尊

参考例句：

• He is absolute ego in all thing.在所有的事情上他都绝对自我。
• She has been on an ego trip since she sang on television.她上电视台唱过歌之后就一直自吹自擂。

5 lasting   

adj.永久的，永恒的；vbl.持续，维持

参考例句：

• The lasting war debased the value of the dollar.持久的战争使美元贬值。
• We hope for a lasting settlement of all these troubles.我们希望这些纠纷能获得永久的解决。

6 schooling   

n.教育；正规学校教育

参考例句：

• A child's access to schooling varies greatly from area to area.孩子获得学校教育的机会因地区不同而大相径庭。
• Backward children need a special kind of schooling.天赋差的孩子需要特殊的教育。

7 grooming   

n. 修饰, 美容，（动物）梳理毛发

参考例句：

• You should always pay attention to personal grooming. 你应随时注意个人仪容。
• We watched two apes grooming each other. 我们看两只猩猩在互相理毛。

8 ruffled   

adj. 有褶饰边的, 起皱的 动词ruffle的过去式和过去分词

参考例句：

• She ruffled his hair affectionately. 她情意绵绵地拨弄着他的头发。
• All this talk of a strike has clearly ruffled the management's feathers. 所有这些关于罢工的闲言碎语显然让管理层很不高兴。

9 guts   

v.狼吞虎咽，贪婪地吃，飞碟游戏（比赛双方每组5人，相距15码，互相掷接飞碟）；毁坏（建筑物等）的内部( gut的第三人称单数 )；取出…的内脏n.勇气( gut的名词复数 )；内脏；消化道的下段；肠

参考例句：

• I'll only cook fish if the guts have been removed. 鱼若已收拾干净，我只需烧一下即可。
• Barbara hasn't got the guts to leave her mother. 巴巴拉没有勇气离开她妈妈。 来自《简明英汉词典》

10 dressing   

n.(食物)调料；包扎伤口的用品，敷料

参考例句：

• Don't spend such a lot of time in dressing yourself.别花那么多时间来打扮自己。
• The children enjoy dressing up in mother's old clothes.孩子们喜欢穿上妈妈旧时的衣服玩。

11 spoke   

n.（车轮的）辐条；轮辐；破坏某人的计划；阻挠某人的行动 v.讲，谈（speak的过去式）；说；演说；从某种观点来说

参考例句：

• They sourced the spoke nuts from our company.他们的轮辐螺帽是从我们公司获得的。
• The spokes of a wheel are the bars that connect the outer ring to the centre.辐条是轮子上连接外圈与中心的条棒。

12 sleepless   

adj.不睡眠的，睡不著的，不休息的

参考例句：

• The situation gave her many sleepless nights.这种情况害她一连好多天睡不好觉。
• One evening I heard a tale that rendered me sleepless for nights.一天晚上，我听说了一个传闻，把我搞得一连几夜都不能入睡。

13 decided   

adj.决定了的，坚决的；明显的，明确的

参考例句：

• This gave them a decided advantage over their opponents.这使他们比对手具有明显的优势。
• There is a decided difference between British and Chinese way of greeting.英国人和中国人打招呼的方式有很明显的区别。

14 voracious   

adj.狼吞虎咽的，贪婪的

参考例句：

• She's a voracious reader of all kinds of love stories.什么样的爱情故事她都百看不厌。
• Joseph Smith was a voracious book collector.约瑟夫·史密斯是个如饥似渴的藏书家。

15 narrated   

v.故事( narrate的过去式和过去分词 )

参考例句：

• Some of the story was narrated in the film. 该电影叙述了这个故事的部分情节。 来自《简明英汉词典》
• Defoe skilfully narrated the adventures of Robinson Crusoe on his desert island. 笛福生动地叙述了鲁滨逊·克鲁索在荒岛上的冒险故事。 来自《现代汉英综合大词典》

16 unaware   

a.不知道的，未意识到的

参考例句：

• They were unaware that war was near. 他们不知道战争即将爆发。
• I was unaware of the man's presence. 我没有察觉到那人在场。

17 morale   

n.道德准则，士气，斗志

参考例句：

• The morale of the enemy troops is sinking lower every day.敌军的士气日益低落。
• He tried to bolster up their morale.他尽力鼓舞他们的士气。