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I am writing this the day before I know my fate-the day before I know the answer to what will happen in my life. I am writing this with my mind set that I will carry on and not let life pass me by.

I am determined¹ that I will see the world in every aspect that may be possible for me. I am sure that I will become something, even if the envelope that carries my life inside it gives me bad news.

I will not listen to those who insist that a university degree is the only way you will find a means of living these days.

I will ignore those who tell me that I am a dreamer without a dream.

I will tell myself that although I may not be accepted to college, I've seen the northern lights curtain themselves in front of me.

I have tasted the wine in Paris and swum in the Atlantic and Pacific Oceans.

I have been to an Irish pub, and I have watched the sun rise from the Roman Forum².

I have climbed the Swiss Alps and counted the stars in the sky until I could see no more .

I have experienced what it is like to live, and I will tell myself that even if that envelope is small and exudes³ rejection⁴, the person that they have rejected will carry on and go on to see more mountains and swim in more waters and keep on counting the stars, because somewhere it is written that I must continue to live my life the way I knows how to.

The envelope that will reach my mailbox tomorrow will bring an answer that I am ready to bear with courage and self-respect.

I will not cry, unless they be tears of joy for bidding goodbye to my childhood and welcoming in a new life–one that is mysterious and unknown, one that will teach me to grow and understand why things are the way they are, one that will out all my regrets and let my self-worth multiply.

I will be strong in my battle and not let little things bring me down, I will tell myself that it is okay to be scatterbrained once in a while and that sometimes the kindness you shoe will balance out your fails.

I will knows that I am a food person and that being smart doesn't necessarily mean that you are accepted into college..

I know who I am and there are brain surgeons who would be challenged sorting through my multi-faceted psyche⁵.

I am independent by nature and a proud woman. I accept who I am and whether or not I am accepted into college. I will be true to myself and to others around me..

I will learn to carry on whit⁶ every goodbye I say at school this week. I will remember my friends and acquaintances and idols⁷, and I will wish them the best of luck in life.

The envelope that has yet to reach my house will not be a letter, but rather a decision that I will make with my life.

I am confused, as are most people my age around this time, but I will not look back.

I will only look toward tomorrow and greet each day, wherever I am with a smile.

1 determined   

adj.坚定的；有决心的

参考例句：

• I have determined on going to Tibet after graduation.我已决定毕业后去西藏。
• He determined to view the rooms behind the office.他决定查看一下办公室后面的房间。

2 forum   

n.论坛，讨论会

参考例句：

• They're holding a forum on new ways of teaching history.他们正在举行历史教学讨论会。
• The organisation would provide a forum where problems could be discussed.这个组织将提供一个可以讨论问题的平台。

3 exudes   

v.缓慢流出，渗出，分泌出( exude的第三人称单数 )；流露出对（某物）的神态或感情

参考例句：

• The plant exudes a sticky fluid. 这种植物分泌出一种黏液。
• She exudes sexual magnetism. 她洋溢着女性的魅力。

4 rejection   

n.拒绝，被拒，抛弃，被弃

参考例句：

• He decided not to approach her for fear of rejection.他因怕遭拒绝决定不再去找她。
• The rejection plunged her into the dark depths of despair.遭到拒绝使她陷入了绝望的深渊。

5 psyche   

n.精神；灵魂

参考例句：

• His exploration of the myth brings insight into the American psyche.他对这个神话的探讨揭示了美国人的心理。
• She spent her life plumbing the mysteries of the human psyche.她毕生探索人类心灵的奥秘。

6 whit   

n.一点，丝毫

参考例句：

• There's not a whit of truth in the statement.这声明里没有丝毫的真实性。
• He did not seem a whit concerned.他看来毫不在乎。

7 idols   

偶像( idol的名词复数 )； 受崇拜的人或物； 受到热爱和崇拜的人或物； 神像

参考例句：

• The genii will give evidence against those who have worshipped idols. 魔怪将提供证据来反对那些崇拜偶像的人。 来自英汉非文学 - 文明史
• Teenagers are very sequacious and they often emulate the behavior of their idols. 青少年非常盲从，经常模仿他们的偶像的行为。