【荆棘鸟】第六章 07

在厨房里，他将这对双生子交给了欣喜若狂的史密斯太太，然后将梅吉带在身边，顺着走道向上房走去。

　　玛丽·卡森正坐在高背椅中。这些年来，她很难得离开它走动走动：由于帕迪督办诸事得力，什么都不再需要她费心了。当拉尔夫神父抱着梅吉走进来的时候，她那恶狠狠的瞪视把这孩子搞得心慌意乱，拉尔夫神父感觉到梅吉的脉搏在加快，便同情地紧搂着她的腰。小姑娘对她行了一个笨拙的屈膝礼，含糊不清地嘟囔了几句问候的话。

　　"到厨房去吧，姑娘。和史密斯太太一起喝茶。"玛丽·卡森简短地说道。

　　"你为什么不喜欢她呢？"当拉尔夫神父坐在那把他逐渐认为是为他准备的椅子中时，问道。

　　"因为你喜欢她，"她答道。

　　"啊，得啦！"这是她头一次使他感到不知所措。"她不过是个流浪儿罢了，玛丽。"

　　"你可不是这么看待她的，这个你自己清楚。"

　　那双蓝湛湛的眼睛讽刺地停留在她的身上；他从容得多了。"你认为我损害了一个孩子吗？我毕竟是个教士啊！"

　　"你首先是个男人，拉尔夫·德·布里克萨特！当教士使你感到安全，就是这么回事。"

　　他吃了一惊，然后大笑起来。不管怎么样，今天他无法搪塞她了；就好像她在他的铠甲上发现了裂隙，将她那蜘蛛毒慢慢地从那里渗透进去了似的。在基兰搏，也许他起了变化，变得老了，变得甘愿心和为贵了。他的激情正在熄灭，或许，现在这激情是为其他的东西而燃烧吧？

　　"我不是一个男人，"他说。"我是个教士……也许，天气太热，到处是尘土和苍蝇……但我不是个男人，玛丽，我是个教士。"

　　"哦，拉尔夫，你的变化有多么大呀！"她嘲弄地说道，"让我听听，这样能成为德·布里克萨特主教吗？"

　　"这是不可能的，"他说道，眼中闪过一丝愁苦。"我想，我再也不想当主教了。"

　　她站了起来，在她的椅子上笑得前仰后合；她望着他。"你不想了吗，拉尔夫？不想了吗？喂，我让你再多烦恼一会吧，但是你估计的那个日子快来了，这是毋庸置疑的。也许两三年还不行，不过这一天会来的。我会像撒旦一样，并且给你提供机会！但是，千万别忘了，我会让你苦恼的。你是我所见过的最迷人的男子。你用你的英俊当面嘲弄我们，蔑视我们的愚蠢。但是，我会让你尝尝自己弱点的苦果，我要让你像任何一个描眉涂唇的妓女一样出卖自己。

 

At the cookhouse he relinquished¹ the twins to an ecstatic Mrs. Smith and passed on up the walkway to the main house with Meggie by his side. Mary Carson was sitting in her wing chair. She hardly ever moved from it these days; there was not the necessity any more with Paddy so capable of overseeing things. As Father Ralph came in holding Meggie's hand, her malevolent² gaze beat the child's down; Father Ralph felt the increase in Meggie's pulse rate and squeezed her wrist sympathetically. The little girl dropped her aunt a clumsy curtsy, murmuring an inaudible greeting. "Go to the kitchen, girl, have your tea with Mrs. Smith," said Mary Carson curtly³.

"Why don't you like her?" Father Ralph asked as he sank into the chair he had come to think of as his own.

"Because you do," she answered.

"Oh, come now!" For once she made him feel at a loss. "She's just a waif, Mary."

"That's not what you see in her, and you know it."

The fine blue eyes rested on her sardonically⁴; he was more at ease. "Do you think I tamper⁵ with children? I am, after all, a priest!" "You're a man first, Ralph de Bricassart! Being a priest makes you feel safe, that's all."

Startled, he laughed. Somehow he couldn't fence with her today; it was as if she had found the chink in his armor, crept inside with her spider's poison. And he was changing, growing older perhaps, becoming reconciled to obscurity in Gillanbone. The fires were dying; or was it that he burned now for other things?

"I am not a man," he said. "I am a priest.... It's the heat, maybe, the dust and the flies . . . . But I am not a man, Mary. I'm a priest." "Oh, Ralph, how you've changed!" she mocked. "Can this be Cardinal⁶ de Bricassart I hear?"

"It isn't possible," he said, a passing unhappiness in his eyes. "I don't think I want it anymore."

She began to laugh, rocking back and forth⁷ in her chair, watching him. "Don't you, Ralph? Don't you? Well, I'll let you stew⁸ a little while longer, but your day of reckoning is coming, never doubt it. Not yet, not for two or three years, perhaps, but it will come. I'll be like the Devil, and offer you- Enough said! But never doubt I'll make you writhe⁹. You're the most fascinating man I've ever met. You throw your beauty in our teeth, contemptuous of our foolishness. But I'll pin you to the wall on your own weakness,

1 relinquished   

交出，让给( relinquish的过去式和过去分词 )； 放弃

参考例句：

• She has relinquished the post to her cousin, Sir Edward. 她把职位让给了表弟爱德华爵士。
• The small dog relinquished his bone to the big dog. 小狗把它的骨头让给那只大狗。

2 malevolent   

adj.有恶意的，恶毒的

参考例句：

• Why are they so malevolent to me?他们为什么对我如此恶毒？
• We must thwart his malevolent schemes.我们决不能让他的恶毒阴谋得逞。

3 curtly   

adv.简短地

参考例句：

• He nodded curtly and walked away. 他匆忙点了一下头就走了。 来自《简明英汉词典》
• The request was curtly refused. 这个请求被毫不客气地拒绝了。 来自《简明英汉词典》

4 sardonically   

adv.讽刺地，冷嘲地

参考例句：

• Some say sardonically that combat pay is good and that one can do quite well out of this war. 有些人讽刺地说战地的薪饷很不错，人们可借这次战争赚到很多钱。 来自《简明英汉词典》
• Tu Wei-yueh merely drew himself up and smiled sardonically. 屠维岳把胸脯更挺得直些，微微冷笑。 来自子夜部分

5 tamper   

v.干预，玩弄，贿赂，窜改，削弱，损害

参考例句：

• Do not tamper with other's business.不要干预别人的事。
• They had strict orders not to tamper with the customs of the minorities.他们得到命令严禁干涉少数民族的风俗习惯。

6 cardinal   

n.(天主教的)红衣主教；adj.首要的，基本的

参考例句：

• This is a matter of cardinal significance.这是非常重要的事。
• The Cardinal coloured with vexation. 红衣主教感到恼火，脸涨得通红。

7 forth   

adv.向前；向外，往外

参考例句：

• The wind moved the trees gently back and forth.风吹得树轻轻地来回摇晃。
• He gave forth a series of works in rapid succession.他很快连续发表了一系列的作品。

8 stew   

n.炖汤，焖，烦恼；v.炖汤，焖，忧虑

参考例句：

• The stew must be boiled up before serving.炖肉必须煮熟才能上桌。
• There's no need to get in a stew.没有必要烦恼。

9 writhe   

vt.挣扎，痛苦地扭曲；vi.扭曲，翻腾，受苦；n.翻腾，苦恼

参考例句：

• They surely writhe under this pressure.他们肯定对这种压力感到苦恼。
• Her words made him writhe with shame.她的话使他惭愧地感到浑身不自在。