【荆棘鸟】第六章 23

因为他受过神学院的严格教育，这套特殊把戏，他根本不放在眼里。但是，那些姑娘们决不会讲述那些会使她们降低身份的秘事。

　　拉尔夫·德·布里克萨特神父竭力想阻止一股热潮在自己的皮肤下弥散开去，但是他办不到；他坐在那里，用手挡着的脸扭到一边去了，心里为他头一次脸红而感到羞愧。

　　但是，这样帮不了他的梅吉。当他确信他脸上的红潮已经褪下去之后，便站起身，把她抱起来，让她坐在那个大理石座上，使他们面对着面。

　　"梅吉，看着我。不，看着我！"

　　她抬起眼睛，看到他正在微笑着。她心里马上就有底了：要是她快要死了的话，他是不会这样笑的。她知道自己对他来说有多么重要，他是从来不隐瞒这一点的。

　　"梅吉，你不会死。你没有得癌症。我没有责任告诉你这是怎么回事。不过，我想我最好还是告诉你。你妈妈几年前就应该告诉你，让你有所准备的。可是我不明白她为什么没告诉你。"

　　他抬头望着那谜一般的大理石天使，发出了一声奇怪的、压抑的笑声："亲爱的耶稣啊！胡为乎今我做这等事！"随后，便对等在那里的梅吉说道："随着光阴的流逝，当你再长大一些，并且懂得更多世事的时候，也许你会禁不住以窘迫、甚至羞郝的心情来回忆今天的。可是你千万不要那样去回忆今天啊，梅吉。这件事完全谈不上有什么可羞愧、可发窘的。就像我做过的一切事情一样，在这件事上，我就是上帝的一个普普通通的工具。这是我在这块土地上的唯一作用，除此之外我什么都不接受。你感到十分恐惧，需要帮助，而上帝让你来接受我的帮助。仅仅记住这一点就行了，梅吉。我是上帝的教士，我是以他的名义讲话的。

　　"梅吉，你只不过遇上了每一个女人都会遇上的事罢了。每个月中你有几天要流些血，这种情况一般从十二、三岁左右开始发生--你多大了，有这么大吗？"

　　"我15岁了，神父。"

　　"15岁？你？"他摇摇头，对她的话半信半疑。"唔，要是你说已经15岁了的话，我就只好相信你的话了。不过，你比大多数的姑娘要来得晚。

 

for he had been through the rigors¹ of the seminary and that particular lesson was an easy one for a man of his type. But the girls, never, never mentioned that secret activity which set them apart, demeaned them.Try as he would, he could not prevent the scorching² tide from diffusing³ up under his skin; Father Ralph de Bricassart sat with his face turned away behind his hand and writhed⁴ through the humiliation⁵ of his first blush. But this wasn't helping⁶ his Meggie. When he was sure the color had subsided⁷ he got to his feet, picked her up and sat her on a flat-topped marble pedestal, where her face and his were level.

"Meggie, look at me. No, look at me!"

She raised hunted eyes and saw that he was smiling; an immeasurable contentment filled her soul at once. He would not smile so if she were dying; she knew very well how much she meant to him, for he had never concealed⁸ it.

"Meggie, you're not dying and you haven't got cancer. It isn't my place to tell you what's the matter, but I think I had better. Your mother should have told you years ago, prepared you, and why she didn't is beyond me." He looked up at the inscrutable marble angel above him and gave a peculiar⁹, half-strangled laugh. "Dear Jesus! The things Thou givest me to do!" Then, to the waiting Meggie: "In years to come, as you grow older and learn more about the ways of the world, you might be tempted¹⁰ to remember today with embarrassment¹¹, even shame. But don't remember today like that, Meggie. There's absolutely nothing shameful¹² or embarrassing about it. In this, as in everything I do, I am simply the instrument of Our Lord. It is my only function on this earth; I must admit no other. You were very frightened, you needed help, and Our Lord has sent you that help in my person. Remember that alone, Meggie. I am Our Lord's priest, and I speak in His Name. "You're only doing what all women do, Meggie. Once a month for several days you'll pass blood. It starts usually around twelve or thirteen years of age- how old are you, as much as that?"

"I'm fifteen, Father."

"Fifteen? You?" He shook his head, only half believing her. "Well, if you say you are, I'll have to take your word for it. In which case you're later than most girls.

1 rigors   

严格( rigor的名词复数 )； 严酷； 严密； （由惊吓或中毒等导致的身体）僵直

参考例句：

• The rigors of that lonely land need no further description. 生活在那个穷乡僻壤的困苦是无庸赘言的。
• You aren't ready for the rigors of industry. 你不适合干工业的艰苦工作了。

2 scorching   

adj. 灼热的

参考例句：

• a scorching, pitiless sun 灼热的骄阳
• a scorching critique of the government's economic policy 对政府经济政策的严厉批评

3 diffusing   

（使光）模糊，漫射，漫散( diffuse的现在分词 )； （使）扩散； （使）弥漫； （使）传播

参考例句：

• Compounding this confusion is a diffusing definition of journalist. 新闻和娱乐的掺和扩散了“记者”定义。
• Diffusing phenomena also so, after mix cannot spontaneous separating. 扩散现象也如此，混合之后不能自发的分开。

4 writhed   

（因极度痛苦而）扭动或翻滚( writhe的过去式和过去分词 )

参考例句：

• He writhed at the memory, revolted with himself for that temporary weakness. 他一想起来就痛悔不已，只恨自己当一时糊涂。
• The insect, writhed, and lay prostrate again. 昆虫折腾了几下，重又直挺挺地倒了下去。

5 humiliation   

n.羞辱

参考例句：

• He suffered the humiliation of being forced to ask for his cards.他蒙受了被迫要求辞职的羞辱。
• He will wish to revenge his humiliation in last Season's Final.他会为在上个季度的决赛中所受的耻辱而报复的。

6 helping   

n.食物的一份&adj.帮助人的，辅助的

参考例句：

• The poor children regularly pony up for a second helping of my hamburger. 那些可怜的孩子们总是要求我把我的汉堡包再给他们一份。
• By doing this, they may at times be helping to restore competition. 这样一来, 他在某些时候,有助于竞争的加强。

7 subsided   

v.（土地）下陷（因在地下采矿）( subside的过去式和过去分词 )；减弱；下降至较低或正常水平；一下子坐在椅子等上

参考例句：

• After the heavy rains part of the road subsided. 大雨过后，部分公路塌陷了。 来自《简明英汉词典》
• By evening the storm had subsided and all was quiet again. 傍晚， 暴风雨已经过去，四周开始沉寂下来。 来自《现代汉英综合大词典》

8 concealed   

a.隐藏的，隐蔽的

参考例句：

• The paintings were concealed beneath a thick layer of plaster. 那些画被隐藏在厚厚的灰泥层下面。
• I think he had a gun concealed about his person. 我认为他当时身上藏有一支枪。

9 peculiar   

adj.古怪的，异常的；特殊的，特有的

参考例句：

• He walks in a peculiar fashion.他走路的样子很奇特。
• He looked at me with a very peculiar expression.他用一种很奇怪的表情看着我。

10 tempted   

v.怂恿（某人）干不正当的事；冒…的险（tempt的过去分词）

参考例句：

• I was sorely tempted to complain, but I didn't. 我极想发牢骚，但还是没开口。
• I was tempted by the dessert menu. 甜食菜单馋得我垂涎欲滴。

11 embarrassment   

n.尴尬；使人为难的人(事物)；障碍；窘迫

参考例句：

• She could have died away with embarrassment.她窘迫得要死。
• Coughing at a concert can be a real embarrassment.在音乐会上咳嗽真会使人难堪。

12 shameful   

adj.可耻的，不道德的

参考例句：

• It is very shameful of him to show off.他向人炫耀自己，真不害臊。
• We must expose this shameful activity to the newspapers.我们一定要向报社揭露这一无耻行径。