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I Wish I Could believe
by C. Day Lewis
"The best lack all conviction,
While the worst are full of passionate1 intesity."
Those two lines of Yeats for me sum up the matter as it stands today when the very currency of belief seems debased. I was brought up in the Christian2 church. Later I believed for a while that communism offered the best hope for this world. I acknowledge the need for belief, but I cannot forget how through the ages great faiths have been vitiated by fanaticism3 and dogmatism, by intolerance and cruelty, by the intellectual dishonesty, the folly4, the crankiness or the opportunism of their adherents5.
Have I no faith at all, then? Faith is the thing at the core of you, the sediment6 that's left when hopes and illusions are drained away. The thing for which you make any sacrifice because without it you would be nothing - a mere7 walking shadow. I know what my own core is. I would in the last resort sacrifice any human relationship, any way of living to the search for truth which produces my poem. I know there are heavy odds8 against any poem I write surviving after my death. I realize that writing poetry may seem the most preposterously9 useless thing a man can be doing today. Yet it is just at such times of crisis that each man discovers or rediscovers what he values most. My poet's instinct to make something comes out most strongly then, enabling me to use fear, doubt, even despair as creative stimuli10. In doing so, I feel my kinship with humanity, with the common man who carries on doing his job till the bomb falls or the sea closes over him. Carries on because of his belief, however inarticulate, that this is the best thing he can do. But the poet is luckier than the layman11, for his job is always a vacation. Indeed, it's so like a religious vacation that he may feel little need for a religious faith, but because it is always trying to get past the trivial and the transient or to reveal these as images of the essential and the permanent, poetry is at least a kind of spiritual activity.
Men need a religious belief to make sense out of life. I wish I had such a belief myself, but any creed12 of mine would be honeycombed with confusions and reservations. Yet when I write a poem I am trying to make sense out of life. And just now and then my experience composes and transmutes13 itself into a poem which tells me something I didn't know I knew. So for me the compulsion of poetry is the sign of a belief, not the less real for being unformulated ... a belief that men must enjoy life, explore life, enhance life. Each as best he can. And that I shall do these things best through the practice of poetry.
1 passionate | |
adj.热情的,热烈的,激昂的,易动情的,易怒的,性情暴躁的 | |
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2 Christian | |
adj.基督教徒的;n.基督教徒 | |
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3 fanaticism | |
n.狂热,盲信 | |
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4 folly | |
n.愚笨,愚蠢,蠢事,蠢行,傻话 | |
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5 adherents | |
n.支持者,拥护者( adherent的名词复数 );党羽;徒子徒孙 | |
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6 sediment | |
n.沉淀,沉渣,沉积(物) | |
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7 mere | |
adj.纯粹的;仅仅,只不过 | |
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8 odds | |
n.让步,机率,可能性,比率;胜败优劣之别 | |
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9 preposterously | |
adv.反常地;荒谬地;荒谬可笑地;不合理地 | |
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10 stimuli | |
n.刺激(物) | |
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11 layman | |
n.俗人,门外汉,凡人 | |
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12 creed | |
n.信条;信念,纲领 | |
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13 transmutes | |
v.使变形,使变质,把…变成…( transmute的第三人称单数 ) | |
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