英语听力 暮光之城•暮色 第222期:第十三章 自白(13)

 "But I resisted. I don't know how. “但我抵抗住了。我不知道自己是怎么做到的。

I forced myself not to wait for you, not to follow you from the school. 我强迫自己不要停下来等你，不要跟着你离开学校。

It was easier outside, when I couldn't smell you anymore, to think clearly, to make the right decision. 在外头，当我再也闻不到你的时候，我可以更容易地思考，更容易地作出正确的选择。

I left the others near home—I was too ashamed to tell them how weak I was, 快到家的时候，我让别的人下了车——我太羞愧了，不敢告诉他们我的意志是那么的薄弱。

they only knew something was very wrong—and then I went straight to Carlisle, at the hospital, to tell him I was leaving." 他们只知道出了非常严重的状况——然后我直奔医院找卡莱尔，告诉他我要离开。”

I stared in surprise. 我震惊地看着他 。

"I traded cars with him—he had a full tank of gas and I didn't want to stop. “我和他交换了车子——他的车子有满满一箱油，而我不想停下来。

I didn't dare to go home, to face Esme. 我不敢回家，不敢面对艾思梅。

She wouldn't have let me go without a scene. 如果我去见她，她一定不会让我走的。

She would have tried to convince me that it wasn't necessary... 她会竭力说服我这毫无必要……”

"By the next morning I was in Alaska." “第二天早上我到了阿拉斯加。”

He sounded ashamed, as if admitting a great cowardice¹. 他听起来很羞愧，就好像在承认自己是多么的怯懦一样。

"I spent two days there, with some old acquaintances...but I was homesick. “我在那里待了两天，和一些老相识在一起……但我很想家。

I hated knowing I'd upset Esme, and the rest of them, my adopted family. 我讨厌想到，我让艾思梅伤心了，还有余下的几个，我不是亲人胜似亲人的家人。

In the pure air of the mountains it was hard to believe you were so irresistible². 在高山上纯净的空气里，很难想象你的味道是那么的不可抗拒。

I convinced myself it was weak to run away. 我说服自己，逃跑是一种示弱的行为。

I'd dealt with temptation before, not of this magnitude, not even close, but I was strong. 在此之前我能很好地抵抗诱或，虽然它们都没有这样强烈，甚至没有这样接近，但我很坚强。

Who were you, an insignificant³ little girl"—he grinned suddenly—" to chase me from the place I wanted to be? So I came back..." 而你，一个不起眼的小女孩”——他忽然咧嘴一笑——“能把我从我想去的地方赶走？所以我回来了……”

He stared off into space. 他看向空中。

1 cowardice   

n.胆小，怯懦

参考例句：

• His cowardice reflects on his character.他的胆怯对他的性格带来不良影响。
• His refusal to help simply pinpointed his cowardice.他拒绝帮助正显示他的胆小。

2 irresistible   

adj.非常诱人的，无法拒绝的，无法抗拒的

参考例句：

• The wheel of history rolls forward with an irresistible force.历史车轮滚滚向前，势不可挡。
• She saw an irresistible skirt in the store window.她看见商店的橱窗里有一条叫人着迷的裙子。

3 insignificant   

adj.无关紧要的，可忽略的，无意义的

参考例句：

• In winter the effect was found to be insignificant.在冬季，这种作用是不明显的。
• This problem was insignificant compared to others she faced.这一问题与她面临的其他问题比较起来算不得什么。