人物:一个家庭的地狱之旅(4)

Dad gives me an ultimatum¹: go straight into in-patient rehab or that's it—he's not going to give me any more help or support. I don't go. Dad starts talking about Uncle Eric again.

爸爸给我下了最后通牒：要么直接进戒毒所，要么就这样——他不会再给我任何帮助或支持了。我不去。爸爸又开始说起埃里克叔叔。

"You saw what his problems did to Pappy and Oma. I'm not going to let myself be drawn² into this behavior anymore.

“你看到了他的问题对帕皮和奥玛的影响。我不会再让自己卷入这种行为。

I have young children and a wife I need to protect, meaning his second wife Catherine Zeta-Jones and their kids Dylan and Carys. This isn't fair to them."

我有年幼的孩子和妻子需要保护，即他的第二任妻子凯瑟琳·泽塔-琼斯和他们的孩子迪伦和凯瑞斯。这对他们不公平。”

"Don't you love me anymore, Dad?""Of course I love you, Cameron. But I'm not going to nurture³ a relationship with you, because I think you're going to die. I've been seeing a therapist about it."

“你不再爱我了吗，爸爸?”“我当然爱你，卡默伦。但我不会培养和你的关系，因为我觉得你会死。我去看心理医生了。"

"What?""I think you're going to overdose, or someone's going to kill you, or you're going to kill someone. I'm trying to prepare myself emotionally."

“什么?”“我认为你会服药过量，或者有人会杀了你，或者你会杀了别人。我试着在情绪上做好准备。”

Dad calls to say that he's heard I'm being investigated by the DEA. "Get out of your house immediately, they're coming for you." He's in town staying at the Beverly Hills Hotel.

爸爸打电话来说他听说我正在接受缉毒局的调查。“马上离开你的房子，他们来找你了。”他住在比弗利山庄酒店。

When I get there, I see that he's with a man I don't recognize. Mom is here too. Uh-oh."Jesus, Cameron, you're dealing⁴ now?"

当我到那里时，我看到他和一个我不认识的男人在一起。妈妈也在这里。哦。“天哪，卡梅隆，你现在在交易？”

The guy Dad is with extends a hand. "Earl Hightower," he says. He explains that he's a drug interventionist, but he's here because the feds are watching me.

和爸爸在一起的那个人伸出手。“海托尔伯爵，”他说。他解释说他是毒品干涉主义者，但他在这里是因为联邦调查局在监视我。

Dad pleads with me to get out of the country. "This is a federal case, Dad. If they want to get me, they'll get me anywhere."

爸爸恳求我离开这个国家。“这是联邦案件，爸爸。如果他们想抓到我，我到哪里他们都能找到我的。”

On July 28, 2009, when I've been a heroin⁵ addict⁶ for four-and-a-half years, I open my door and see a guy in a New York Yankees hat. He says, "I'm a special agent with the DEA."

2009年7月28日，我已经吸食海洛因4年半了。我打开门，看到一个戴着纽约洋基队帽子的人。他说，“我是缉毒局的特工。”

They take me down the back stairwell. At Metropolitan⁷ Correctional Center, I'm given an orange jumpsuit to put on.

他们把我带到后面的楼梯井。在大都会惩教中心，我穿上了一件橙色的连身衣。

Twelve brutalist stories of hulking brown ugliness, MCC holds nearly eight hundred inmates⁸, all waiting to be tried or sentenced or to testify in other people's cases.

十二个粗笨丑陋的野兽派故事。MCC关押着近800名囚犯，他们都在等待审判、判刑或为他人作证。

Since it's a place for pretrial detention⁹, it's a maximum-security facility, with some of the most depraved and violent prisoners from the most dangerous penitentiaries¹⁰ housed alongside people like me.

因为这是一个审前羁押的地方，它是一个最高安全级别的设施，一些来自最危险监狱的最堕落、最暴力的囚犯和像我这样的人关在一起。

I stare at the ceiling. It's cement in a honeycomb pattern. I close my eyes and a weight descends¹¹ upon my chest. I'm really here. This is happening. Hey Pop . . .

我盯着天花板。它是蜂窝状的水泥。我闭上眼睛，一个重物落在我的胸前。我真的在这里。这确实发生了。嘿，爸爸…

I'm sorry about all of this I really am . . .I really was shooting for bigger and better.

我对这一切感到抱歉我真的…我真的在追求更大更好的东西。

Also, please apologize to Pappy, Granny, and the rest of the family for all this, I feel really ashamed for being the source of any embarrassment¹² and/or shame . . .

还有，请向爷爷、奶奶和其他家庭成员道歉，我为自己造成的任何尴尬和/或羞愧感到非常抱歉。

Thank you for your support and standing¹³ behind me on this one. It means the world to me. Your son, Cameron

谢谢你的支持，谢谢你在这件事上支持我。它对我来说意味着整个世界。你的儿子，卡梅隆

1 ultimatum   

n.最后通牒

参考例句：

• This time the proposal was couched as an ultimatum.这一次该提议是以最后通牒的形式提出来的。
• The cabinet met today to discuss how to respond to the ultimatum.内阁今天开会商量如何应对这道最后通牒。

2 drawn   

v.拖，拉，拔出；adj.憔悴的，紧张的

参考例句：

• All the characters in the story are drawn from life.故事中的所有人物都取材于生活。
• Her gaze was drawn irresistibly to the scene outside.她的目光禁不住被外面的风景所吸引。

3 nurture   

n.养育，照顾，教育；滋养，营养品；vt.养育，给与营养物，教养，扶持

参考例句：

• The tree grows well in his nurture.在他的培育下这棵树长得很好。
• The two sisters had received very different nurture.这俩个姊妹接受过极不同的教育。

4 dealing   

n.经商方法，待人态度

参考例句：

• This store has an excellent reputation for fair dealing.该商店因买卖公道而享有极高的声誉。
• His fair dealing earned our confidence.他的诚实的行为获得我们的信任。

5 heroin   

n.海洛因

参考例句：

• Customs have made their biggest ever seizure of heroin.海关查获了有史以来最大的一批海洛因。
• Heroin has been smuggled out by sea.海洛因已从海上偷运出境。

6 addict   

v.使沉溺；使上瘾；n.沉溺于不良嗜好的人

参考例句：

• He became gambling addict,and lost all his possessions.他习染上了赌博，最终输掉了全部家产。
• He assisted a drug addict to escape from drug but failed firstly.一开始他帮助一个吸毒者戒毒但失败了。

7 metropolitan   

adj.大城市的，大都会的

参考例句：

• Metropolitan buildings become taller than ever.大城市的建筑变得比以前更高。
• Metropolitan residents are used to fast rhythm.大都市的居民习惯于快节奏。

8 inmates   

n.囚犯( inmate的名词复数 )

参考例句：

• One of the inmates has escaped. 被收容的人中有一个逃跑了。 来自《简明英汉词典》
• The inmates were moved to an undisclosed location. 监狱里的囚犯被转移到一个秘密处所。 来自《简明英汉词典》

9 detention   

n.滞留，停留；拘留，扣留；(教育)留下

参考例句：

• He was kept in detention by the police.他被警察扣留了。
• He was in detention in connection with the bribery affair.他因与贿赂事件有牵连而被拘留了。

10 penitentiaries   

n.监狱( penitentiary的名词复数 )

参考例句：

• Making use of written or common law, the serf-owners set up penitentiaries or private jails. 农奴主运用成文法或习惯法，设立监狱或私牢。 来自互联网

11 descends   

v.下来( descend的第三人称单数 )；下去；下降；下斜

参考例句：

• This festival descends from a religious rite. 这个节日起源于宗教仪式。 来自《简明英汉词典》
• The path descends steeply to the village. 小路陡直而下直到村子。 来自《简明英汉词典》

12 embarrassment   

n.尴尬；使人为难的人(事物)；障碍；窘迫

参考例句：

• She could have died away with embarrassment.她窘迫得要死。
• Coughing at a concert can be a real embarrassment.在音乐会上咳嗽真会使人难堪。

13 standing   

n.持续，地位；adj.永久的，不动的，直立的，不流动的

参考例句：

• After the earthquake only a few houses were left standing.地震过后只有几幢房屋还立着。
• They're standing out against any change in the law.他们坚决反对对法律做任何修改。